Christmas downer

As 2011 is coming to a end, I've learned many things throughout this fast year.

I learned how to be there for myself while no one else is.

I learned to be strong.

I learned about giving up and not trying.

To be honest this year was horrible.

Since December of last year Ive been living in the middle of the war it seems.

In 2012 I hope I will be more mature about my actions. I want to be brave I don't want to give up. I say this every year but hopefully I won't.

So this week....I backed off the audition for the musical because someone said I have no chance so I went home. And didn't move for about an hour. I felt ashamed of who I was. I'm pathetic. But next chance for an audition I will show them who's boss..

I decided today to leave school early since 'Tis the season' and well I always feel like I force people to hangout with me.

But whatever. In 2012 I will not let people Hurt me. I'm going to show them the real me.

I think for my new year revolution (I believe that's what it's called) I will be working on my self esteem and image and I want to read the bible... And write more blogs and make vlogs... But you never know...

Sorry for the downer post today guys. I'm just being depressed and upset this week. Ita been a year since the incident at my old school and I haven't changed into a person I wanted to be. I just feel worthless -__- oh well

Merry Christmas! If I don't write a blog before Christmas


-and in the new year I will be starting my project... so yeah! Have a safe an merry Christmas and a most amazing new years