Gooodmorning Simmuuaaahhh

Good morning Dearest Readers.

Its a rainy tuesday morning where I am right now.

Today I think Ill be going shopping hopefully!

Anyways...

I got so many great things for christmas,
which also contributes to myself buying a faboulous laptop at the cheap price of $450 dollars THANK You boxing day

and also my stupidity also takes me to the question
do you ever get excited to see all these low prices on boxing day so you pick up something that excits you?

I did that yesturday and boy do I feel like a fool.

I wanted to get the sims 3 ( I know a 16 year old girl playing sims. She must gets bored alot.) So I thought I did

I picked up sims and RUSHED to see if my parents could buy it for me instead of some stupid movie  (Which now I do regret not getting)  Well Apparently I didn't cheak the price and the name of the sims.

see I don't have the sims to download an expansion pack. haha and the Generation expansion pack is what i got. IDIOT i know.. Anyways So now i have this expansion pack which is more expensive then the whole entire game its self.

So Im just going to future shop today to switch the pack to the normal sims (hopefully...)

But if they dont have the sims... Im stuck with getting movies -_- which is alright with me since I am a movie watcher and have a completly awesome movie collection. But I rather the sims.


Wellll that seems to be all...

Sorry and Follow

Hello All

First of all,Merry Christmas

A few days ago i posted a stupid blog that was all about me being all depressed and stuff.

Just wanted to say sorry

ANYWAYS I got a new lap top!
so hopefully I will  be blogging more...
Ha-ha

aswell I need to get more followers on Twitter so 2012
make SURE you follow cause once I can follow again
I WILL FOLLOW YOU! Haha

Christinauntold

FOLLOW! haha

have a good day guys!

Christmas downer

As 2011 is coming to a end, I've learned many things throughout this fast year.

I learned how to be there for myself while no one else is.

I learned to be strong.

I learned about giving up and not trying.

To be honest this year was horrible.

Since December of last year Ive been living in the middle of the war it seems.

In 2012 I hope I will be more mature about my actions. I want to be brave I don't want to give up. I say this every year but hopefully I won't.

So this week....I backed off the audition for the musical because someone said I have no chance so I went home. And didn't move for about an hour. I felt ashamed of who I was. I'm pathetic. But next chance for an audition I will show them who's boss..

I decided today to leave school early since 'Tis the season' and well I always feel like I force people to hangout with me.

But whatever. In 2012 I will not let people Hurt me. I'm going to show them the real me.

I think for my new year revolution (I believe that's what it's called) I will be working on my self esteem and image and I want to read the bible... And write more blogs and make vlogs... But you never know...

Sorry for the downer post today guys. I'm just being depressed and upset this week. Ita been a year since the incident at my old school and I haven't changed into a person I wanted to be. I just feel worthless -__- oh well

Merry Christmas! If I don't write a blog before Christmas


-and in the new year I will be starting my project... so yeah! Have a safe an merry Christmas and a most amazing new years

Everything is going a-o-k

Hello Readers,

Like I said I had alot planned for the weekend!
and It was alot of fun!
Ha-ha

Anyways, This weekend I had my friends over and went to the falls...

Even though it was a 5 minute venture around niagara falls - Which was okay with me since I was cold and didn't have my coat...  We played truth and dare because we didn't know what else to do...

Friday night I was ughh hanging otu with two old friends...We did stupid things haha and we were texting people and I text my "Ex best friend" and yeah.... Haven't heard from her yet. So I guess my 50 50 thing isn't working so well lol

well thats all I guess?

I dyed my hair which was awesome! I like it everyone else likes it but my mom does NOT like it... oh well...

ugh I just have nothing to say I guess

Goodbye for now?

My weekend

So the new year might be better!found out somethings to day so my future could be a little brighter in the future!

I'm so excited for this weekend though!

Friday I'm hanging out with some old friends I haven't seen in forever! And yeah this will actually be the first time in a while I felt excited to see anyone... Usually I want to avoid people

Saturday my friends birthday! There's a group of us going to Niagara falls... You might have heard of that place... ;) but yeah! So excited to be honest! And it's no parents i do believe.. So yeah :p hopefully I'm not to dead from Friday events haha ;).

Sunday I will lay around and day dream... Most likely... Download some Madonna on my iPod... I dont know... That reminds me I have to practice for my audition on Monday... Well if it doesn't work out it'll be okay I guess... :s I don't know x)

10 things I look for:

In a friend I want

1. A girl/guy who I can trust. I have massive trust issues with friends. I don’t know why. I just have horrible experience with some.
2. If I was friends with a guy I don’t want to fear of him trying to get with me or try to be more then friends.
3. Someone who is easy to talk too. I like whenever I can talk about anything with my friends
4. A friend who will text me first every once in awhile
5. A friend who will be silly with
6. Friendship takes 2. If my friend always made me put more effort in being a friend then what’s the use? I like the term 50/50
7. Someone who invites you to parties and don’t feel ashamed of bringing you.
8. I like a friend to be loyal and not so dramatic.
9. SOMEONE WHO WILL NOT USE ME!  (Happens a lot.)
10. A friend who will not ditch you.

In a boyfriend:

1. Good to other people.
2. Confident about himself can speak to a big crowd about something that might be really embarrassing to talk about or just standing out. Confidence for me is so sexy.
3. Open to speak his mind. I like a guy who can talk about what ever is on his mind. And a guy who takes action like a guy who can make the first move or say something about I don’t know bullying or something really important.
4. Not crazy… as in mentally insane… that’s a big one  
5. A guy who knows how to party ;) I like to party. And I don’t like a bummer who doesn’t do stupid things while he is in his teenage years.
6. A guy who trust me and I can trust him –
7. Talks about his ex girlfriends and what him and her used to do. Talking about his ex is a big no no for me because well who wants to hear about the past and want to hear about anything that they did. i.e sex life, things she did, things that make her better then me etc   
8. Good taste in music, a guy who likes mostly every kind of music! Maybe he can play some instruments and or sing. That’d be a bonus.  
9. A guy who can joke around and is a little serious but when he needs to be serious... OH and Talking about joking around he has to treat me like he would do not being around his friends because if a guy can embarrass me in front of his friends I find it pointless.
10. A guy who is cool to just hang around sit on the couch I guess just talk, watch a funny movie or go for a hike or a jog or something awesome like that I guess someone I get along with amazingly. oh and Not all into kinky shit all the time sometimes its funny but I hate guys always talking about sex sex sex sex…

 Im really picky about boyfriends…: p from past boyfriends I learned what I am looking for in a boyfriend So yeah! : P some what very picky.

Friends... I couldn't think of much... but anyways.

That is all ? I guess

Rambling on Dec 13th

Reading over previous blogs I realised I have changed and im not as mature (in some ways) as last year.
I look over my first few blogs and I read a lot of confidence and trying to encourage myself to be a stronger person and in some ways I did become stronger but I find I’m a bit immature now in some ways… I keep saying some ways… GAHH

Anyways, I’m not that down in the dumps today…Which is cool I can deal with that haha. 

 I don’t work tonight… so yeah ill probably write more… haha

Well then....

Great news...

I guess my mom isn't that mad at me... Haha but anyways I still have to study for my audition and read over my lines for my drama class... :p so I guess every bad day has it's bright side.

Rambling on...

Obviously, all you can see that today's been one messed up day since I've posted what like 3 blogs already...

Today I guess was a slap in the face because my past was haunting me and obviously I can't get over it. Aswell im just waiting for a fight to arise in my house since I took my mothers bag this morning and I was Told to empty it on friday... She's gotten very upset with me today...and even deleted me off bbm... I can see a fight happening soon... Which sucks because I am in a fighting mood and I don't want to be kicked out of my house or be walking to school in the morning (even though I should start walking anyways I'm alot bigger then I was a year ago) so I decided to be smart and do the dish washer and do some laundry and obviously clean her bag. And I'm still scared shit-less

Ugh aswell...well of right now I need to practice for my audition for the school musical which I have no confidence left nor any friends to tell me what I'm doing wrong with my singing and acting. So I really hope I get a part I'm just not that sure I'll be getting one this year...

I have to much on my mind.

I'm probably going to go to the gym or go for a run tonight... But I don't know... If I do have any readers... What do you do when your just going threw hell? Or very stressed out? Right in the comments...


I just hope for everything to go better in the new year.

A year ago...

What this blog means.

Last year around this time. The 14^th to be exact. I did something stupid that has changed my life. I made a mistake and I couldn’t take it back I felt so ashamed for who I was. I had a dream I don’t remember the date because who keeps track of their dreams… anyways

This little boy came to me in a dream… I was just confused about the whole dream I guess… but if you read my first blog (Below) it talks about how this boy talked to me asked me what I wanted to be blah blah blah blah blah then I asked him what he wanted to be he told me : said happiness, love, hate, betrayal but then recovery.

I didn’t understand… then I asked him why…. I didn’t really go much into the dream because I don’t remember dreams so much.

This year I guess I learned what this little boy meant

Happiness: After the issue in December passed. The Christmas holiday was passing I guess you can say. I had a great time. I had friends I made new friendship and I had forgiven everyone.

Love: through out this year I had love. I had love with friends, family and a boy for a little while. This love makes me go back to happiness. The love I felt from everyone made me go to school. The love I felt made me stronger.

- Then something horrible happened. I had to switch schools.

The love still continued until the summer where I felt like myself again. I was happy. I was proud to be saying I am Christina Hackett again.

Then Hate rolled in.

Hate: I don’t know what I ever did to deserve all this guilt and hate towards myself. I lost most of my friends for doing stupid things in the summer. I don’t know why. I think of how this even happen. I just really don’t get it. I guess I would have to ask them why to get an answer.

Now Recovery. Obviously I haven’t recovered from any of this because if you read into my blogs. My life is just a big rollercoaster. I don’t know. I want to feel the happiness again I want to feel the love I had taken for granted. I just took everything for granted.

One thing I learned from this year 0was don’t pity yourself even if your, your only friend. Don’t give up someone is always waiting on the other side… I guess Recovery might be a mile away. But these kinds of issues will make you stronger.

A year ago I made this blog to make my life change. Because I seen all of this coming. I had seen my life just falling just like it is now. I just wish I had done things differently.

- I just need to change I guess…

A little boy came up to me the other day and asked me what I saw in the future for myself.
I stood there thinking why would this boy would ask me such a question and what would I say back to him?
I replied to his question saying I didn't have an answer. I asked him what he saw in his future.
He said happiness, love, hate,betrayal but then recovery.
I asked him why he had said hate and betrayal.
He replied "we can't all be happy every day and every night."
We will have our good days and our bad days.
And there will come a day where we will experience someone leaving our lives.
We learn from everyone
Older, Younger even the same age.
I find we have to look with in to complete happiness because everyone will have a good and bad day.

Child hood blog

Deleted the Child hood page I don't know why. But here is the blogs from the page.

Bullying

I’ve had so many encounters with bullying; I was the new kid, the girl who cuts her hair short like a boy Man there were so many names I’ve been called. I don’t even remember them half of them but all I remember how much it hurt me.

In Grade 2 I moved to a new school with a bunch of new kids. Saying that I should mention I was diagnosed with ADHD in Grade 1 so when I did go to this school I was very hyper and always was talking and always getting on the teachers nerves I think any teacher I had in the past would agree with me but in grade 2 my mom got me up early to do my hair all nice and when I got home every night it was always a mess… I always did stupid things and all the kids laughed at me so I always picked at my hair. One day my mom got so fed up with me she dragged me to the hair dressers. The women was a Chinese lady, about 40ish. She put me in the chair. I remember this because the smile on her face was so creepy. She started to cut layers at a time; my mom was shopping for groceries so she couldn’t stop the lady from cutting it really short. By the time my mom got back to the shop. I was in tears. I hated my hair! I remember crying in the car. “The kids are going to make fun of me. This is your fault” I knew these kids would pick on me. I was in complete hell for the next 7 years. Grade 3 everyone used the word gay all the time. “You look gay” “You look like a gay boy” etc. I was hurt by all these words. I didn’t tell any adults or someone who could do anything…

Grade 4 I had a great teacher I respected very much I loved her. I knew I could talk to her anytime. I can say she was one of my two favourite teachers I’ve had in elementary school she was also my teacher for grade 5 one time walking home a kid had punched and kicked me I ran back into the school and told her. She told the principle and then I had to explain my bullying issues from the last 3 years. They didn’t do much. But I felt safer knowing that a teacher actually cared about me. Until my mom went for a parent teacher meeting and my mom told her I lied a lot about my homework and stuff other things… And then she didn’t really care anymore it kind of hurt because after that it was just different. I had a social worker at the school and I had my special ED teacher to talk to but it wasn’t the same bond I had with the one teacher. Grade 5 my parents took me to NEW YORK CITY. While in new york I got these awesome pink glasses just like Paris Hilton had. When I got to school the following week a kid told me I looked like “Elton John” I was sort of offended because he is a man and he is gay. But he was also my favourite singer and such a big inspiration to manys. The kid took the glasses threw them on the ground and then stomped on them. I told my mom I just lost them and she believed me. Grade 6 came. Man what a year. We went skiing, on a camping trip and many other things. I took showers every morning but I didn’t do anything to my hair which made it look dirty since I had really dark hair and it was short so it just looked bad. In the summer I switched hair dressers I had enough of the 20 dollar magic cuts I went to and switched to a Salon. The guy who did my hair made it look so great. This was the start of doing my hair nice and dressing better.

Grade 7, I was bullied because I hung out with dirty kids and my best friends were preppy & normal girls. I just hungout with who ever I wanted too. I was tormented because I was ugly and stupid. I started to cut myself. Someone found out then all the sudden the next day everyone knew. I was really embarrassed because that was my secret and people called me emo and wanna be emo. It was horrible. Then I started to mature at the end of the year and just dressed nicer and become friends with whom ever I wanted.

Grade 8 The last year before high school, the year went pretty fast the first part being bullied and then I started to hangout with nicer kids who accepted me. I was a little weird but they all found me funny. I liked that. I started to feel liked. Then I had to switch schools again. I didn’t go to the same high school as my friends I went to a different one so I could have a better education. I found out who were my real friends actually. The ones who stayed in touch, I had my first real high school relationship I made a lot of friends and I actually felt really liked by everyone. It felt awesome. Then I my friends and I learned that drinking was fun. I then gained a stealing and drinking problem. Stealing money from my parents so I can go get some hobo behind the beer store to get me and my friends some coolers, we go drink them and stay at one of our houses. One time I got caught we had a huge bottle of sour puss and a I think its called a 24 I think of vodka. It’s the biggest size. So yeah… I was at my old elementary school with my friends taking shots off the playground. It was pretty great until we had to go home my friend was puking and I was drunk out of my mind. It was crazy. My parents thought we were at a harry potter marathon because we thought we were going to be all night. My parents in the morning made us get up early and take us to Costco. We were hungover and we were so sick we couldn’t stand. It was hell! From then everything was alcohol till I realised I needed to calm down with drinking once in awhile I had a drink but I didn’t do it because I was sad. Then yeah… Grade 10, I lied about stupid things like drugs and I got caught and I felt so vulnerable I hurt myself then moved to a different school… from there everything was like hell but not as bad. Still being bullied but I ignore it. Ill write more about this subject on my life because I didn't really give you alot of things how i've dealt with all this stuff. so yeah Keep posted! Thanks for Reading

I'm going to make this page based on the short childhood stories I said I'd posted. The only one I did post was about me having short hair and low esteem im going to continue using this page to write about my childhood. FYI Some of the things at the end of the “Segments” I will say something about the now and how are things are going. Aswell I’ll be adding to this page every week talking more about my childhood….

Short Hair

- When I was 7, I never liked being neat and tidy and do my hair nice like the other girls, so my mother had dragged me into the hair dressers and she got a women to cut my hair short. When I got out of the hair dressers chair I looked at the mirror then I started to cry I looked like a boy!! The women had cut my hair to short!! My mother didn’t think she’d cut it short like that… Since then I ALWAYS wanted to grow long beautiful hair, I wanted it so long so it could touch the floor but it never seemed to grow... I always wanted to have hair like the princesses I saw on television. I felt if I had long hair I could be a princess but I knew that was never going to happen.

I was always such a happy kid but the kids in my classes always put me down; they called me names and said I was a he/she and so much more they made me feel like I couldn’t be good enough or be pretty enough to do anything .

I was never a girly girl so that’s why I didn’t have many close girl friends... I always dressed the way I wanted to and I loved to pretend to be famous or someone else. I loved dressing up putting make up on and wigs and just being happy, NOTHING could bother me when I was pretending.

In grade 4 I started gymnastics I LOVE going to the gym and doing shows and dressing up, I did gymnastics for 3 years.

Grade 6 I quit gymnastics because everyone said that gymnastics are for losers. The cool thing was cheerleading. SO I tried to join cheerleading it just wasn’t the same as gymnastics. I dropped everything and went into modeling. It was a good way to bring out my creativity, my mom thought. I did modeling for about 3 years and I got fed up with all the fake preppy girls, I quitted. I always felt like I was never good enough to do anything. I always had low esteem and I still do...

Relationships

Growing up you tend to gain friendship and lose friendships (as in friends or boyfriend/girlfriend)

Since grade 2 I’ve had my main 2 girls who were always there for me and always came to my birthday parties and went shopping with me and grew up with me…

Throughout this time we did have our fights but we always made up in a day or so. Middle school came and went then high school came.

Going to a different school for awhile had made our friendship seem stronger then ever even if we didn’t see each other everyday we either texted or call each other to see how we were all doing.

Since grade 2 I’ve only maintained a strong relationship with these two girls even if I called everyone my best friend in grade 7 but honestly I look back and I’d only had 2 or 3 girls I actually felt I had trusted and was able to call them a best friend.

When I moved to a different school I had more friends, more then I ever had.I felt things I’ve never felt before I felt liked.

I had a whole group of friends and had so many laughs and memories, I had my first real long term relationship with a boy and then everything slowly started to fall apart again. The summer of 2010 I lost grip of one of the greatest friendship I ever had, I didn’t know what the hell I was doing. We all make mistakes some we can’t take back.

Later that year I did something so stupid, I needed someone who I trusted calling my two of the closest friends even if I didn’t speak to the one girl since the fight, I needed help they helped me through a tough time even if one friendship couldn’t be repaired, It was so awkward for so long.

Friendship with one friend grew stronger while one wasn’t able to change. It felt so weird I had to do what I could even if it went against my morals. I wanted to gain our friendship back. I tried so hard with every friendship so nothing could change because the last “broken friendship” was so awkward I didn’t want that to happen to the other friendships I had. Since last December I’ve been living in hell.

Confusing Teenager...

First of all sorry for not writing for such a long time second of all… I don’t know what to say.

It’s been one hell of a month. In the last 3 years December is always a wacked up month for me. But I always have to look straight I guess.

Lately, I’ve doubted myself a lot more then usual which is horrible for my self-esteem and being positive blah that’s all I have to say to that.

I’ve been acting weird lately. First is not making eye contact with people I like and hate and avoiding all my friends unless I feel like talking. It’s odd.

Secondly I’ve doubted myself for the future. I find myself trailing threw my thoughts thinking about who will I be. I close my eyes and think. I see a loser being alone no one not even family I also see a liar, thief, drug user, Alcohol user I see negatives. If you know me, I am none of those things (Even though I do lie often, and I “borrow” things from my family without asking) it’s hard especially when I do try to see positive, I see high expectations. I see myself going threw hell trying to achieve my goals. I want to give up so badly I want to give up and I always do I feel like all the things I try to do. I will never be good enough for anyone. I think to myself often and think wow. I can be so much more. I lay in my bed or watch tv a lot. Usually when I am actually watching tv. I lose myself in my thoughts. I often tell myself all these negative things. Then I go to bed. And think more. And those nights I work (if I haven’t mentioned it already my hours been cut to one day a week for 3 hours.) so that one night I work. I am so happy. I love working it’s the only thing I actually like. I feel confident when I work. It gets everything off my mind.

Thirdly, I feel like I keep letting myself down. I always wanted to make vlogs and make characters and put these characters on youtube and all this other shaniagans. And I find myself putting the creativity away. And just continue being depressed. It sucks. It really does.

My last thing is that I feel so ashamed all the time to be who I am I can’t be myself so I always have to watch what I say. I can never be myself. I always feel stupid, and something I also do is stumble over my words when I read it’s so embarrassing then people laugh at me. Then I laugh at myself. And that just makes me feel like an idiot. But see Im so used to being laughed at. I kind of just ignore it. I don’t know.

The positive out of this negative situation.

It WILL be over soon I know that and most teenagers don’t realise that until their shoving 50 Advil pills down their throats and getting their friends mom to drive them to the hospital and a year or two later they will realise that some accidents are meant to happen.  And they might also realise that high school is 4 short years. That’s what I recently realised.

 I have so many things to look forward to which might make me or break me.

Even though I’m going to fail maybe 1 class this semester EVERY mistake is fixable. I can take a credit recovery or do it online summer school I don’t know just don’t let the negative bring you down you are who you are. And you are obviously here for a reason. And like the title says theirs positive out of every negative. Like all of this stuff going on right now. Makes me realise who my real friends are, it doesn’t matter if you’ve been friends for 11 days or 11 years. If you knew me you would know my head and my heart is in the right place if I see someone crying I always think what if that was me. I usually make myself look like an idiot and go talk to them and sometime you could make a friend out of it.

Now im just rambling…  

I don't know.  

Just an FYI

I’ve been working on a project that’s coming out I hope in May 2012 after I find some sort of sponsor. I’ve been working on a character which will be about a girl who is trying to kick a serious addiction. Which I’ll either be posting on youtube or some other website if I do get a sponsor all the sponsor would have to do is just give me ideas and promote me pretty much.

I’ve came up with a story line all I have to do its just write out a script and find more people who will be like a support system type thing.

I think that this will be a really hard project because I plan to have a video blog and a writing blog about over coming this addiction (from the character)

Anyways that’s all I can tell you now.

Ugh I just keep giving up.

Ugh right now,I just feel disappointed and depressed I finally put a video on my YouTube Chanel then I watch the video twice and I feel disappointed and the people i talk to will just make fun of me. I can't do anything right it feels..

I wanted to lose weight for months now I've been to the gym once every two weeks but I just feel that everyone excuses and feeling down on myself makes me less energetic and makes me feel like I can't do it and I try to make friends and become friends with people who I haven't spoke to in awhile but it seems to not be working that greatly..

I've had enough confidence today to Make a video for much music and I worked 4 hours on it creating the video and then editing it. Then I realized how stupid it was.

I give up on everything I do. It sucks i feel very disappointed in myself I just wish everything went back on track...

Ugh sorry for the downer blog guys im just not feeling that great right now.

Make your Christmas better Make a Difference

This Christmas more then a thousand kids in your region will NOT be celebrating Christmas because they are sick don’t have a home with a family or their family can’t afford presents.  

This Christmas buy a toy for someone other then yourself buy it for a child who would enjoy it more. Multiple Churches, Family & Children Services and many more are collecting Christmas gift to give to a child in need or also you can donate money to several charities around YOUR region because even a penny count.

Many Elementary schools take Can goods, Toys or Winter Supplies and give it to kids who need it! I remember every Christmas I woke up on I remember having tons of presents Stacked on top of each other. Not many kids have that. I remember my mom getting me a Furby I believe and I was scared crapless of the Furby because they looked like gremlins and when I slept I felt it was watching me…anyways I opened it and didn’t really play with it ever… I think back to that and think how I could of donated it to a church or some sort of charity. If your kids hate a toy or anything bring it to your local church or daycare or anything else in that case and donate it!

http://www.childrenswish.ca/en-on/donate

http://www.pmhf.ca/Pages/Events/

http://www.canadianfeedthechildren.ca/how-you-can-help/?gclid=COjl4reZzawCFYHe4AodTmwyrg

Also many radio stations tell you where you can donate toys or money so keep your ears open if you want to donate anything!

Everything counts

Just some silly blog...

Someone who really inspires me is Donal Logue,A few years back a friend and I were walking the street of Toronto taking part in the Film Festival. Being stupid I went up to this guy who was dressed nicely and looked like he would do something hilarious to avoid me I went up to him and asked for a high five. just because I was stupid. And there was Donal he laughed us and said "Hell yeah thats just... what I wanted" OR something on that line it wasn't what i expected..., My friend asked if he was a Actor (because he looked like he was since he was with a lady who was rushing him to the intercontinental for an interview,)and he said yes and that he did alot of native pornographic movies as a joke. We actually talked for a good 5 or 10 minutes and he gave me some really incredible advice and gave me and my friend an autograph and picture..Not knowing who he was till someone pointed him out who he was this year at the festival. If you ever get to meet Donal Logue, Take it as an experience because he is one great man and I will remember meeting him and the things he had said to me for the rest of my life.

Another Promise.. :3

I haven’t really written much this month. I got no excuses to follow that sentence so yeah haha. Everytime I mean to write something there was always something that would come up or I was too lazy. But that doesn’t matter since I don’t have many people fans of my blog so I don’t think many people were affected in that state. Sooo I actually want to make another segment to my blog being vlogs and have some things I do, Like just around my home town and such. Prank videos maybe a few monologue maybe some mini skits. I will let everyone know. I’m just thinking of ways to get out there in the social media networking and stuff. So yeah this is a short blog… just letting you know I know I’ve said a few times I’d start doing blogs but I think I mean it this time…Hopefully haha..  

How do you know?

So my friend just asked a boy out and after 2 weeks of dating him she regrets asking him.
I told her next time follow my list.

1. You think about him
2. You mistake love movie charactors from your relationship
3.You close your eyes and see his smile
4.You do anything to talk to him
5.You can't get him off your mind
6.Your stomachurns everytime he makes eye contact with him.
7.You feel like you trust them
thats all really my list :P

She asked me how does she know a guy actually likes her. but see every person is different so you can't tell. but if your dating someone and if they keep bothering you for sex, DUMP THEM they are just using you.

I have big plans.

I will be starting a Page which will have all my childhood stories that i promise to post I will just copy short hair and put it on their and then just continue writing it. . which will just be one big mess because I dont understand this website set up at all... but oh well.
I will figure it out.
haha

Sorry for not blogging

I've been to lazy to right

but heres some funny pictures from Helpfeedthetroll.com&Reddit.

that is all...

Dating a transgender, does it make you gay or lesbian?

 A friend of mine is dating a transgender male she’s having troubles at school and her home environment for dating him. Does this make her a lesbian?

No it does not. She is dating a boy in a girl’s body. He thinks like a male he looks like a male the only thing is that makes him a girl is his “girl parts”. If I saw them walking down a street I would not think he was a she.

See I find it pathetic that someone has to comment on their relationship saying she’s a lesbian because they aren’t doing anything sexually because he is uncomfortable with his body therefore till he feels comfortable and makes the change I don’t believe they will do anything. Therefore he will be a guy someday its okay.  

I believe if someone can date a transgender person and still be with them even if they are the same gender

and considerer it straight it doesn’t make you gay at all. It makes you more accepting of people.We need more people in the world like her. It just upsets me that someone can just but down a girl for dating someone of the opposite sex even if their body parts say they are the same.

I WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE :'(

To be honest I’m upsets with myself.

I’m only passing the “easy” courses (Gym and Drama)

See I took Math Gym Drama and Com Tech – this semester

-         All I want to do in life is Act, Write or Critic movies.

To be honest I don’t care if I fail ANY of these courses besides drama.

Like I’m seriously upset for not coming to school regularly I really am. It’s just that I need to get it done like I feel like I am an adult stuck in a child body and I’ve been hurt so many times by the “big kids” I just want to hide. I seriously need an after school activity or something because at night all I do is lay on the couch or work I complain how my life isn’t going to get better. I just feel like a broken glass that hasn’t been stepped on or swept away. It’s kind of depressing to think about but it’s just how I feel I guess.

 I don’t know. I just really want to go to college but I don’t know: P

Kim Kardashian Getting Divorced?

When reading about this “issue” I just believe it was just for all the money and something to trend on twitter and make their show more popular.

A Wedding for a “normal couple” usually leave the two newly wed broke for about a year…But for Kim it was different. For a man who had spent 2 million dollars on an engagement ring. “People magazine” paid $300,000 for their engagement announcement. The couple was also paid $1.5 million by “People magazine” for their wedding photos and $100,000 from “OK!” for bridal shower coverage, and between $30,000 and $100,000 from “Us Weekly” for photos of their trip to Italy, and you can’t forget about the big show on Kim’s own show. I’m sure any magazine is going to pay a lot of money just for the divorce details.   

My halloween was different I guess
A friend and I went out for about 2 hours got as much candy as we could.

When we were out there was about 2 or 3 home made haunted houses.
I don't know why but I was slightly afraid to go in one because I just
1)Didn't know the people
 2) Saw Jig saw.
I didn't know what to expect.
All in all it was a good time.

My favorite coustume was a kid in a jack sparrow coustume he was about 3, he was so adorable...
thats all I guess for this blog.

Note: I'm going to try to get back to my old self with my blogs that make sense and I actually try to make longer and put more heart in. I'm going threw alot at the moment and i'm just trying to get better.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

UGH Come on. 

My life keeps falling into the shitter. 

So Today I had to work. Turns out im on the verge of getting fired. 

GREAT. This seriously sucks. 

I don't even know what to do -_- everything is so wrong now. 

-_- 

DO YOUR HOMEWORK.

My mom keeps telling me to do my homework.
I tell her I don't have any.
2 hours later
Dad: do your homework....
Me: I DONT HAVE HOMEWORK
Dad: i'm sure...go study....
I have a computer course a gym course and a drama class....
I don't have the software that they do in Comm tech and then I can't practice anything by my self for gym...
and well drama.... not really besides studying lines I don't have... -_-

If you really knew me.

1.I listen to music that matches my mood so I have 10000 playlist on my iPod
2.I'm not a drug addicted and I hate drugs and how they make you feel.
3.I love every genre because music is so beautiful even if someone is screaming.
4.I'm afraid of love. I barely say it to my family members
5. I have a hard time in school friend and education wise... I don't test well
6. I keep losing friends that mean so much to me.
7.I feel this blog is helping me so much because writing means alot to me
8. I have big dreams and I haven't done anything to start making them true
9.Everytime I walk into school my stomach turns.
10. I'm myself and I'm done changing to fit in with my 'friends'

High School Experience - Christina's Story.

Right now I just need to vent.
This is a personal blog about things that I’m thinking about and things that lead me to be so confused about life. To be honest these are not my biggest secrets there are just things I wanted to tell to the world because I’m so done with keeping everything inside my head.

Note: Everything I say is in this blog is from the past.

 If you have the same issues as me comment and just vent as well anonymously or not or make a blog telling me your story! 

Every year around this time of year, my highs turn low and they stay low till mid January (sometimes December)

Ever since high school started, it’s been different.

Summer of 2009 is a summer I defiantly will remember. I had my two best friends and everything was good until fall 2009, I had to go to a different school. I had a learning disability and I was denied to go to the school they went to.

I had a hard time fitting in until I met the right people. It was okay it was just weird I guess going to a new school and everyone knows everyone and you don't know anyone... I got depressed often when I think about it every fall (mostly every fall) I seemed to be more depressed then any other season
Anyways I started to self harm because I didn't know what to do with these people.

Winter 2011 came along I had my first love. He was my best friend he was everything to me and I never wanted us to end I had good friends and still had my two best friends. Spring came along and everything went down because my boyfriend and I were having so many problems fighting every other day and it was a living nightmare. In Summer 2010 the summer was a little better, me and my boyfriend were getting along me and my best friends were better then ever, but when fall came along I changed and I just felt the need to be miserable, I dumped my boyfriend and my best friend and I decided it would be the best if we didn’t see each other for awhile. Thank god I had two best friends because with out the other best friend im sure I wouldn’t be here today.

 Winter came along and everything turned to the worst. I felt so alone. I started to extremely hurt myself. I didn’t go to school for a month because I felt so alone and I thought everyone hated me. I was scared so miserable. Writing this I am actually holding back tears. It was the worst part of my life and I get reminded every day of how much it was. I changed schools I changed my life style and I felt so alone. The only person holding me together was my best friend. I eventually became friends with my old best friend. It wasn’t the same. I look at our friendship on Facebook sometimes and see how much we changed. We used to write on each other wall hack each others Facebook etc. It was just typical best friend things. We changed so much. It was so sad she had different friends. Even though I got along with them it was still different it wasn’t just us. Its hard to explain.

I still had the other girl who was the glue to the paper my jelly to my peanut butter sandwich. She came over when ever I needed a hug she gave me advice (really bad advice) she was so bad at it. Then things got a bit better.

By the spring I felt better… but I was still recovering I had stopped self harming myself. But then I started to abuse food. I was a size 7 to a size 16 in 3 months. I just felt I needed to eat all the time. It was still harming my body but in a different way a way I couldn’t really tell I was harming myself.

Summer 2011 I got a gym pass, and figured out who I wanted as a real friend. I still wasn’t exactly sure. But it was the summer all I wanted to do was have fun and that’s really what I did. I didn’t call people the people who wanted to see me was the people I wanted to hangout with. I had a party and I made certain rules and everyone followed the rules besides one friend but I kicked her out of my life. At the ending of the summer I realise I lost only 6 pounds I was VERY upset about that. I couldn’t find a easier way to

lose a few pounds. I started to throw up my food after I ate. As well I stopped eating for a few days.

I lost my best friend the last two weeks of summer and I felt I just  wasted my summer building a friendship only to find it not working out. It was just like summer 2010.

Right now I’m trying to find a decent way to try to lose weight with out starving or not throwing it back up. I’m struggling with friendships. I walk down the hall ways feeling stupid and like a loser. I’m the only out of my friends who wear size 11 pants and I feel like they always leave me out of things or don’t want me hanging out with them.

But that’s just my head.

My mother and I don’t get along anymore and same with my brother I feel I have to buy my brothers love and to be honest I just don’t feel like I fit in anywhere right now.

I just want my two best friends back I just want to have the two girls I love back in my life who are two from two different groups and have different personality and style but when I bring them together we are like the three best friends.

I want these two girls to be the bride maid at my wedding and the girls who I have Girls night with every Saturday night. I just want all of this to start over and never do the things I’ve done. Right now I just have a lot of regret in my life… I just don’t know what to do with my self….. :/  

Also I'd like to add that I have a twitter account.

@christinauntold

Follow and I'll follow back!

Cheap Halloween ideas!

o    What are you going to be for Halloween?
Do you have money to waste on costumes?

I don’t spend a lot of money on Halloween for the simple reason of I DON’T HAVE MONEY TO WASTE.

These are some good ideas for a cheap and happy Halloween:


The Garbage Bag: with a garbage bag you can do a lot of things
You can make a dress out of it, all you need is some duck tape and a creative mind.
You can be a hobo, just rub some dirt on face and you could look like a hobo.

Old Clothes: what I like to do with some old clothes is that I like tear them also wearing clothes that are to small you can rip them to make them larger so maybe if you rip or tear a shirt you just throw on some fake blood and pull off a zombie

`More costume idea’s to come`

Get your old fat clothes (if you were ever fat) and or maybe go to a theift shop at get some bigger people clothing! :A bigger person shirt + Pants add a few pillows and maybe be a "bigger person" for halloween.

Dress picture from
 http://margaretswanderings.blogspot.com/2009/03/my-prom-dress.html

Thats so gay is not okay?

Why so gay?

The meaning of the word: Gay is when a man and a man or a woman or a woman love each other and are physically attracted.

FUN FACT: The term gay was originally used to refer to feelings of being "carefree", "happy", or "bright and showy".

These days’ people (mostly children or teenagers) use gay in a negative way. “Did you see Carl today? He is wearing a pink shirt” “That’s so gay”.
Actually today, I’ve heard “that so gay” more then 10 times used by teenagers.
 I’ve went up to 3 of the 10 people who said “that’s so gay” and asked them what do they mean by that’s so gay?
Answer 1: I don’t know it’s another term for stupid I guess.
Answer 2: It means …. Uhh stupid or that it’s gay… I mean … I don’t know…
Answer 3: It means it’s stupid or I didn’t like something so instead of stupid I use gay… Did I offend you or something, I don’t mean gay people are stupid its just a really bad habit.   
I’ve asked some of my “gay” friends do they get offended of that’s so gay. Most of them are used to it and some even say “that’s so gay”
What do you make of it? Should gay men or women get offended?
If you think about it there are a lot of words that are like the same but they mean differently… what do you think?  

To be a zombie

Watching the walking dead makes me wish I went to zombie walk in Toronto.

I find that opening your mind and acting like a zombie and pretend to be one would be a mind opening experience. If you attended or went and took picture of the zombies comment on this blog id like to see them.

Everyday, I feel different
I walk down the hall feeling like everyone is staring.
 Like everyone has something to say to me
I feel like no one understands me.
and thats cool only people like me understand me.
I'm a weird kid not going to lie...


I'm an actress god made me to act.
I feel it in my blood. God made me to show people good.
He made me to be a game changer.
I know that.
Even if god isn't real I know im here for a reason.
I know when I get older I'm going to do what I love to do
I love people fun and active and I love having a camera on me!
I'm going to try to do more vlogs i know that i say that alot and i havent did it yet.
I look at Shane Dawson and IJustine ETC
I just want to live like them or like just go to work and do school part time.
like acting
working on a show  I don't know

I have big dreams....

What I'm thinking.

I'm thinking about

1) i don't want to work tonight
2) how im failing all my classes besides gym&Drama
3) how i need to find my dirty work uniform then quickly wash it.
yep all negitive.

besides all that my life is going well right now
sad but true.

Growing up

I've Lost alot of things since grade 6.
alots changed most of my friends i had back then either RUDE, To popular to talk to me Smoke to much weed and dont remember me and are obbessed with boys so they dont talk to many girls just boys.


I dont hangout with many people at the moment because
1) i don't care at all.
2) I don't feel anything

I don't have feelings at all, I feel so empty it feels good,. I like to think about NOTHING but just myself because all my life i've been caring about others then myself.

I see people walking down the hall that I dont like and I just give up. its probably the best but still
I don't care. I may laugh sometimes because I do that thinking of times where they stood up for me or something stupid like that.

Young Love.

Okay, So this isn't part of my sagment of the child hood thing,

I just wanted to say a few things on teenage relationship in high school because I walk down a halls of my school thinking its pathetic because i see this girl everyday with a different guy and I feel so bad for the guy because she just pretty much "loves" them till the next guy

For most of my teenage life, I've been single.
I dated a guy in grade 9 and man I actually thought I was inlove at some points
i'll explain. Lets call this guy i dated Johnny so people dont start talking....

SO Johnny and I started dating first semester In december of grade 9.
Our first time hanging out with each other out side of school was in november, We were just friends hanging out so nothing happened.

Johnny wanted to go see new moon, so I said I'd go with him.
 I will admit that I did REALLY like him,
While we were sitting next to each other in the movies we were playing footsy and joking around with eachother and then we stopped for awhile. Then he grabbed my hand in the middle of the movie then kissed me.
I had no idea that a guy I liked could like me back because that NEVER happened to me EVER. So the next day at school he asked me out I said yes. Well within the first month he had cheated on me,
and I was soo pissed because i liked him SOOO much and then I went to my best friends cousin house and we had ALOT to drink.
Things happened there and then I told Johnny what happened.

That was the beginning of our lying and shitty relationship
After that there was a whole lot of things that happened,
 we made eachother cry happy mad etc.
Then in the summer I cheated for real I didn't tell him then he went to the hospital for about 2 weeks, not sure why but he did.

 I was actually scared of dating him at that point cause i didn't want to hurt him anymore.

So after a month apart we got back together he went to his cottage and then I realised I didn't actually love him and then started seeing another guy while he was at the cottage because I was stupid.
When he came back, he called me and told me about his amazing vacation and how things were getting better.

Then I told him I couldn't see him anymore because our relationship was so bad and I said that I didn't trust him anymore.

A week before school I broke up with the guy I was seeing.

After that I never really dated again.
I think girls who date boys after boys after boys in high school are completely desprete because of the fact they crave love and they wouldn't know real love if it hit them. 
I think kids shouldn't date because they cant handle it.
YES Some can. but not everyone

 I find alot of things in high school you will regret and one of those things can be dating 'your first love'
because you don't know what to do and it kind of hurts and stings after you break up because you can't handle how powerful relationship can,

my first relationship scared me and I don't think I could handle another relationship like that and since then I don't date boys in high school...
I'm just saying its just really sad how girls can say they love a guy if they only dated this guy for 5 days.


Tell me what you think about this?
sorry for the grammar errors and such
i just wrote this quickly on my phone.

Short hair

When I was 7, I never liked being neat and tidy and do my hair nice like the other girls, so my mother had dragged me into the hair dressers and she got a women to cut my hair short. When I got out of the hair dressers chair I looked at the mirror then I started to cry I looked like a boy!! The women had cut my hair to short!! My mother didn’t think she’d cut it short like that… Since then I ALWAYS wanted to grow long beautiful hair, I wanted it so long so it could touch the floor but it never seemed to grow... I always wanted to have hair like the princesses I saw on television. I felt if I had long hair I could be a princess but I knew that was never going to happen.

I was always such a happy kid but the kids in my classes always put me down; they called me names and said I was a he/she and so much more they made me feel like I couldn’t be good enough or be pretty enough to do anything .

 I was never a girly girl so that’s why I didn’t have many close girl friends... I always dressed the way I wanted to and I loved to pretend to be famous or someone else. I loved dressing up putting make up on and wigs and just being happy, NOTHING could bother me when I was pretending.

In grade 4 I started gymnastics I LOVE going to the gym and doing shows and dressing up, I did gymnastics for 3 years.

Grade 6 I quit gymnastics because everyone said that gymnastics are for losers. The cool thing was cheerleading. SO I tried to join cheerleading it just wasn’t the same as gymnastics. I dropped everything and went into modeling. It was a good way to bring out my creativity, my mom thought. I did modeling for about 3 years and I got fed up with all the fake preppy girls, I quitted. I always felt like I was never good enough to do anything. I always had low esteem and I still do...

Heads up.

Hey guys, so for my next few blogs im going to tell you about my childhood and my expierences with bullying and bullies and just talking about how I got through it teenage relationships and tips on how to clear your mind thats all! So keep posted

Late night blabber...

Friendship grow
Friendships die.
something that is bothering me is that people liked me more when i was upset and always so upset.
when people tell me I changed in a certain way it sort of upsets me because I try to be the best that I can.
Changing is something that is part of you.
Changing will make you who you are and some traits you will keep and some you will drop...
Good or bad. 
Be yourself
change if you must.
theres always chances just take them

Kids will be Kids

I haven't lived for very long as you may see,but I consider myself as an adult because I make adult choices.
At age 16 you have alot of responsibility

• Find a job
• Get good grade in school 
• Chores 
• Take care of your self
• Get your drivers license. 

 as we make these choices to do the right things we also make bad decisions which sometime will bring you being more mature, if you decided to have sex then you will make the choice birth control methods or nothing
or if you do drugs you think will this affect me or not or going to a party and drinking till your green is a good or bad decisions we all know we wake up the next morning and saying "bad decision but it was fun" BUT some of these will affect horribly.
Most Alcoholics began drinking high school
Most Drug users had their drug in high school
and girls who have sex eventually get pregnant if their not lucky.
JUST THINK BEFORE YOU DO!! 
These choices if caught by the law will go on your record (Drugs and Alcohol)or if your pregnant and a teen mother your most likely not going to get a great job until you finish high school but you still might be flipping burgers for the rest of your life because alot of people judge! Its not you its just them thinking their perfect!


Trying to meet your parents expectations doesn't mean you have to give up your dream.
It means you should work hard to show them that your dreams mean more, one day your dreams will make you money and make you important.
Parents try to map out their kids life at day 1
But they never think what the kids want.
Maybe I want to be a loser
Maybe I want to be a Winner
its my choice
I'm never giving up on my dreams, I know people DON'T say that very much because we as teenagers GIVE UP easily!
we don't think we're good enough so we drop out of sports
we don't like math so we don't try!
We need to be cheered on!
we are like kids but we are just a different size and think this is how a adult acts.


If I was cheered on and people say "good job" and stuff like that I think i'd actually like math.

We are all kids in this world!

Steve Jobs

I've owned alot of apple products since I was 8.
 Starting with my 1st gen I pod nano I had it for 2 years and never had one issue with it then handed it down to my brother. Then I got the newer version of the nano then a year later I bought the new Ipod touch. I fell in love with the touch from the beginning the clarity and the thought of ruling the whole device with a touch of the finger it was so amazing to me.
 I've found that the world has lost a very smart and incredible man a few days ago because he had believed he could do anything, he always took things to the next level. He was also an amazing speaker he always promoted his new products with excitement and I think that’s what made Steve Jobs so amazing promoting. Steve was surely a business guy.  I’ve never heard anything bad about Steve Jobs. Always heard that he was so nice and he was such a friendly person and never looked down on others.
Steve will be missed by so many people. He was such a great inventor.

I hope Tim Cook will be just like Steve Job and make Steve proud!

My heart goes out to all who have been affected by the lost of Steve death.

Social Media Classes.

 Right now im sitting in comm tech thinking that there should be a course for Social media because
-people will take it to learn how to use twitter, facebook, myspace and other sites.
-learn how Social media is useful for a workplace business
-how you can stay connected within the world.

Twitter keeps you the most connected to the celebrities and can promote alot of things.
Like let’s say you own a pizza business
On your card or maybe on your receipt you could promote your business social media (Twitter or Facebook) and gain more followers or have more likes. You can promote your “newest item” have monthly draws and much more.

For example having monthly contest for a free pizza, because you’re giving away a pizza and lets say its on tweeter more people will retweet it BECAUSE they want a free pizza which is promoting you because they are retweeting you and more people will know your name because possibly they follow you or someone says “im having a pizza at #PizzaJoes” or something on that line.

MOST Teenagers RELIE on Social Media, they message their friends, they enter contest etc. if teenagers don’t understand the benefits of facebook and twitter and many more programs. We should learn how facebook and twitter could be a huge benefit for us teenagers.

will be continued.

Toronto, T.i.f.f 2011!! Tips and Tricks for Next year!

This year was actually one of the BEST years I had at T.i.f.f because I love hunting down people... and it was REALLY fun
i'll give you simple tips and tricks for what you can do next year!
 My friends and I  stalked the paparazzi which lead us to ALOT OF Celebrities So Follow your paparazzi!!
 We sneaked into hotels and waiting in the lobby till we found someone (Which we didn't have much luck to get pictures and autograph)

Meet your idol:
Lets say you want to find George Clooney (who is there every year but still)
He usually stays either on Bloor  But this year MOST  of the celebrities this year he stayed at the *Ritz Carlton* 

If you talk to people, and they say they've seen such and such here you write it down because sometimes if they have two movie premiers in the week they go to usually the same hotel for interviews... Which is usually a intercontinental or the windsor arms.If you see them come out of a hotel that is like the intercontinental or the windsor arm get a taxi and follow the T.i.f.f S.u.v its really creepy but sometimes its worth it most of the time!! :p
If you have a dream of meeting a certain celebrities, well usually, I google them a week after the previous T.I.F.F and make notes for the future T.i.f.f and the next year they usually are still at the certain hot spots...


Google things like who was shopping where and who stayed where... (i.e Megan Fox 2 years ago was seen shopping at a Lu Lu Lemons)

ALSO!! most of the interviews This year were also at the T.I.F.F LightBox  which is all underground so alot of people are always in the back of the t.i.f.f light box to catch these people coming in and out!

Also If the Celebrity has a Premier go to the Red Carpet, If you missed then I usually wait till the movie is over then go to the back of the Theatre that they are in. I did this trick MANY of times and i've met such Celebrities Such as Will Ferrel (Sorry Forget to spell his last name) Emma Stone and alot more...


I'll add more tips and tricks throughout the year :)
so keep watching for new blogs and such : )

Whats on MY mind..

First of all, people who wanted to see my vlogs it will take time... because im still learning to use the programs for editing the videos aswell my video camera sucks and I just won a new one so their is more to come once i get settled.....

The last few weeks, I really matured I found a job aswell I am no longer doing anything bad things. which i was never really the one who did them in the first place but everyone has their own opinions. Also i've been more into learning about life and trying new things that will turn out positively. I really want to blog more because i find it is like the BEST way to get stuff off my shoulders. I think I want to blog more about personal things, but who really gives a crap about a teenager and her messed up life.... x)

well thats really it for now, I think

Letters to Lady Gaga.

June 18^th 2011 I woke up thinking I was going to make my dreams come true today, not because my mother won some tickets for the celebrity gift suite it was the day I was determine to meet Lady gaga

I woke up and decided “hey, I’m going to do something maybe someone wouldn’t think of doing or writing.” I got out some pictures from the lady gaga concert I had gone to in March 2011. I was inspired to write something meaning full and full of thought. I wrote and spilled my guts out in my letter to her. I wanted to write a piece of me because she showed and gave so much to all of us.

 Finally I was finish and my mom called out to me. It was ready to go. I was in a rush to go to Toronto anyways and try to meet Gaga and see her possibly at this gift suite.

Throughout the gift suite I was trying to stay in one place just in case she would arrived.

6 hours passed.

She wasn’t coming. I gave up this try. My mom suggested going on the subway and subway it up to Bloor. When we got there someone yelled “GAGA!” a whole bunch of people swarmed around her car.  I was on the other side of Bloor, just my luck. As I waited for her around the streets she could have been found on. I had met some girls and socialized with them. About 70 minutes passed and she came back.

 She didn’t stop this wasn’t her; she loves her fans and would never run away from a crowd.

 I ran up and down the streets trying to catch a glimpse of seeing her and try to give her my letter. She ran inside her hotel. Soon I found out Clarence Clemens had died. One of the most well had known Saxophonist of many generations.

 I decided to try tomorrow.

 The girls I had met wanted to try to meet Cody Simpson, Someone who made them happy.

 At 10:50 Pm Madison Pettis from the Disney Channel (Cory in the house) came out and chatted with us for a good 15-20 minutes. We had chatted with her. She is such a sweet heart. Her mom said she would text Cody’s mother and told them that we were out here waiting for him.

 When they left they said if they’re not down in 20 minutes that means they are in bed. I was okay with just meeting Madison but the other girls wouldn’t settle for just her. I was fine with that because if it was the other way around I would have stayed.

Around 11:30, Cody and his sister Ali Came down stairs. The girls were filled with joy and couldn’t believe it.

 We took photos with the two siblings and chatted for a good 10-15 minutes. They are really something, really nice people!

When we were leaving, one of the girls checked twitter and realised that Gaga was suppose to be rehearsing. I smiled this was my other chance. We arrived to the place lady gaga was suppose to be. There were two Teenagers they were waiting. They informed us that lady gaga wasn’t rehearsing because she was too upset to rehearse tonight. I had put my head down for a quick moment.

As the night carried on I arrived at my hotel room around 12:30pm and had gone to bed.

 |The day of June 19th 2011, I woke up with a smile on my face and a map in my hands. I was determined to give my letter I hand wrote to lady gaga. Today was the day of the MMVA this was the final day I could try to find gaga and meet her. I was excited.  We took off to find a quick meal. We went to this restaurant/Bar that served brunch. I was looking over the photos of last night, one of the girls who had taken a photo with Cody and she asked me for the photo... I was looking through my camera and I didn’t see it and I had told her I couldn’t find it. She accused me of deleting her photo and started calling me all these bad things I had ignored her ignorance. She said “karma is a b***” I looked over the photos again and again, and then forgot about her because I knew I wouldn’t of done that because it would have been a selfish thing and I would never do that to someone.

At 11:30 we had seen a bunch of people waiting in the back of the MMVA Stage. This was my chance. The first time gaga passed (not sure what time) she only signed a few autograph and took a photo with some people.

I chased her down the street... for her to get my letter. A few other performers passed and I had met them. At 3:25 pm Gaga was back. I said this is my final chance if I don’t meet her I give up. She ran into the crowd of people to the right and gave them all a huge hug then she ran to the left and gave them a hug too. 3:31 pm I gave her my letter. I gave her my personal letter that was just for her. She had signed it and gave it back to me. I screamed out “THIS IS FOR YOU!” . She smiled.  I started crying. She took my camera and took a picture of us, she then hugged me, and the rest was just a blur really. After she left I ran out of the crowd to call my mom. The first words out of my mouth were “she took my letter” My mother said “who took your letter?” she had thought someone beat me up the girl who thought I deleted her picture. “Gaga, she really took it.” I cried harder “Oh my, you really did it” my mother said. And the whole conversation is also kind of a blur...

 Gaga has inspired me to do so many things and I wanted to give her a piece of my inspiration and one thing I had promised myself to do if she had got my letter is start a blog (even though I already have started blogging.) just focused around us, the world and everything that makes us who we are. And possibly a personal vlog focused on you and everything that could make someone inspired by my words.